Monday, July 17, 2006

So I had a doctor's appointment today

According to their scale, I haven't lost any weight. I think that's probably wrong and I'll go weigh in on the scale I'm used to at the clinic here on post. At my doctor's appointment I got a few things cleared up for me...

* He doesn't know why I got the ulcer. He said it was the first time he's ever seen one in someone this early. When you factor in I don't smoke, drink, eat spicy foods or have acid reflux, it was all the more odd.

* I told him how lately my moods are insane. That I'm hateful, mean, scared, bitchy, crying, sad, etc. He said it was all normal because fat cells absorb estrogen and when you start losing the fat, the estrogen basically overtakes you. Ok yeah he worded it way better but that was the basic idea. Then factor in the stress of surgery, the bleeding ulcer, etc. and he said it was no surprise that I was feeling this way. Easy for him to say. He's not the one that's losing his mind. But it made me feel better... to a point. I'm not a mean person by nature. Bitchy, yes. Mean, no. Yet lately I have done mean things and even as I do them I can't stop. It sounds crazy. Ok yeah this topic is upsetting me, which makes my stomach hurt, which is bad for the ulcer, which makes me worry, which is bad for the ulcer, which makes me scared, which is bad for the ulcer. I think we see where that's going.

I'll write more later.

1 comment:

Carie said...

I had 7 open and bleeding Ulcer 2 years ago and was on meds and all kinds of stuff for them, it sucked lol so I so sympathize...they hurt and make everything you eat not settle well...I hope yours heals soon :) and mood swings are pretty common with any dramatic change in your body, its physical, mental and all of that...I hope it gets better for you to...sometimes life can just keep throwing stuff at us and we gotaa get all bitchy at everyone else cause well we can't throw the shit back at life lol...if you ever need to bitch, rant, cry or laugh I am here for ya :)