Wednesday, September 13, 2006

I Wish I Were Open

Why am I so closed off? On the forefront it seems as if I share a lot, and I do ... to a point. But there are things inside or things I do that I don't share. I read Monica's blog and Stacey's blog about the things they could be judged for and they just lay it all out there. And everyone pours out the love. Which is GREAT! So, why can't I be open and honest. I'd like to be. I'd love to be able to Blog about a situation I've been in but I can't. Why? Because it's stupid, embarrassing and I just don't know how to be open.

I commend Monica and Stacey for being so open. I envy that.

8 comments:

hyka's mess said...

awww Lin .... trust me, its not easy, but its the only way that I can try to confront it head on. Take the postitive with the negative. I know I'm not perfect ... I know that ... I'll never be perfect, but I'm trying to be a better me. I'm really trying .... part of what made me try was reading about your sister. I never thought about things from my family's point of view, only from my selfish point of view .... I've got to take this day by day ... I know its going to be hard, but its the best thing I can do for me and my kids right now. Thank you for sharing your sister's situation with us on your blog .... honestly, hearing of others trials and tribulations, helps us to really sit back and examine ourselves.

Thank you so much for being my friend ... I couldn't have done this without you. Luv ya Lin!!

Susan Davis said...

Does Gary read your blog?

Maybe that's why.

On The Losing Side said...

Susan ~

Nope, Gary does not read my blog. He consideres it my online journal.

Deana said...

I think everyone has a different level of what they are comfortable sharing. I think you just have to find what works for you. There are a few people in my life I share absolutely everything, and then everyone else only gets most of me. I hope you have someone you can share with for support, and then maybe thats enough.

Carie said...

I am alot like that, I always hold back, both online and in my life, I have always been like that...it makes it hard on others who want to know everything about me, but I have never felt like I could open up...I to wish I could just let so much out, to let people in for just one minute, moment, whatever lol...

Nobody special said...

I feel kind of special because I like to think the reason you don't want to share everything is because you are afraid of losing some of us as friends! Awwww you love us, you REALLY love us!
Lin, there is nothing you could say that would make me hate you. Could you surprise me? Yeah, probably, but I have shared personal things too, and for some I was judged, and you know..the worst thing that happened was someone asking questions and not understanding, and really that helped me answer questions about the situation that I probably should have asked myself long ago and helped me understand myself a bit better in the process. Or if they tell you that you are a horrible person, you will have to defend yourself, and maybe see things from a new point of view after that too. Like, "Yeah, I DID do that because I was young and scared. That is normal and ok!"

Why do I always write you a damn novel!? :S
..because I love you! lol

Stacey said...

Wow, thanks, Lin. I think for me I had to be honest with everyone else, before I could be honest with myself. I dont have any "real" friends or family that read my blog, so I think that's why I feel more open to share. I know that if I knew "real" friends that read it, I would probably hold back more. Your an amazing person, Lin, and like Angel said, there is NOTHING that you could say or do to make me think different! ((HUGS))

Mimi said...

I can't be as open as I want to be on my blog, all my family reads it and I have a certain image in there eyes. So, I really understand how you feel. I also don't have friends here that I can talk to. Before I moved to this area, I had plenty of people to chat with, but I kind of got wrapped up in the new life I had and unfortunately, those friendships floundered, but it takes two to have a friendship and none of them really called me either, so I guess that's the way it goes. But, you can say whatever you want and as one of your faithful readers, I would never judge you.