Friday, June 09, 2006
The Strangest Relationship I have
I've been thinking a lot about food. Hmmm go figure. At first it was almost obsessive. Now it's more just a constant thought. I often think of what I'd want to eat. Or what would taste good combined. I have even cooked once for Gary and Gunner. I have made Gary lunch three times. Basically I'm not avoiding food at all. I'm trying to be around it. I have to build a healthy relationship with food. I inhale the smells to the point I think I can taste it. I've now started envisioning how I'll eat. I envision the small, small portions. How I'll chew thoroughly. I have to rethink how I treat food. How I eat. The frequency, everything. It's a whole new ball game. I refuse to ignore food. Or ignore that I love it and everything about it. I think this is the best way -- face it head on. It'll always be a struggle. This time, though, I'm going to eat to live, not live to eat.
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Do you go to the support groups they have? I've heard that helps, but it sounds like you have a handle on it already. Keep up the good work.
Mimi ~ I am going to go to a support group. There isn't one in my area right now. The closest one is an hour away. But that's not really a problem. I'm going to go to the one my doctor has once a month, though it's a 2 hour drive each way. I figure I can do the four hour drive once a month for the sake of support. Thanks for your thoughts!
I'm glad, if you ever need to vent, just drop me an e mail, I haven't had the surgery, but I would love to hear how things go and maybe I'll finally take that step.
I'm so proud of your outlook!!!
Do you live by the golf course? Either way, it's a great track to walk on... long and hilly, but beautiful and refreshing. It's 1-2 miles, I think. Perhaps you could do a portion of it at first.
I'm so glad you're exercising and are full of motivation! God's good, ain't He?!
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