I had a counseling session on Monday. I'm still not very fond of my therapist. As a person, she's great. I just don't think she's going to help me much. Her answer to everything is, "You don't have to decide that today." I know that... but WHEN? When do I decide things? How do I decide them? But then again, maybe she is helping because since that session I decided that cutting myself was not something I'm going to do .. NOT because of Gary. NOT because I think it was dumb. But because I just .. .well I don't know. I just decided I wasn't going to. I don't have to have a reason, right?
I need to get back to losing weight. I want to join Curves. Having one car makes that hard. IF Gary's schooling is approved, I will join.
The Army is pissing me off. Gary re-enlisted with the option for six months of schooling. As in he didn't have to go to his Army job, he could go to school for six months. Well due to a few things going on in the world and things I'm not sure if I'm allowed to say online (security), his schooling may not get approved. But it was in his CONTRACT. He can't change his contract, why can the Army!!!! And the Army wonders why it's having trouble keeping it's soldiers.
Lately I'm doing ok. I'm not happy with my life. I'm not miserable either. I'll work towards happiness little by little. My counselor was right about one thing -- I don't have to make the decision to leave or stay with Gary today.
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BIG HUGS!!!!
my doc used to always tell me "you never know what tomorrow may bring" I didn't think it helped back then, but it does now...
I wanted to join curves to, but it was just not within my budget, but I may get to next month...
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